He loves me....not.

Do you feel like you're always constantly wondering what boys are trying to tell you? I mean...if he jokingly asks me to teleport to him....wouldn't you think that means he's into me? What is on his mind? A question the resounds in women's heads across the nation, across the world. Why is it that we can never seem to understand the opposite sex? Is it really so hard to believe that this boy wants me? Yes, in fact it is. This particular boy has strung me along multiple times throughout our friendship. I have always had a soft spot for him in my heart...and obviously that hasn't changed. He decided a few months ago that he wanted me. Of course, as always, he didn't follow through with his initial "feelings" and let me down. Nothing new in my life, don't worry about that. But then here he is again. Saying things that he probably doesn't mean. But how am I to be sure? I'm sure there are a lot of eye rolls as this passage is being read..and believe me, I don't blame you. I am far from a cheerleader for love, optimism and second chances. But what is it about this guy that keeps me hanging on? Maybe the fact that I haven't had him yet. There is that popular saying, "you want what you can't have". Well, sure. I believe that. But WHY? Why do I want something that is so unobtainable. For the sheer pride that I would feel for "winning"? That's ridiculous. I am absolutely not a competitive person by ANY means, and never have been. And even if I was, that doesn't change the fact that he's continuing to lead me on. AND IN ADDITION TO THAT, we chatted recently about how he is talking to another girl. A girl who he's claims he's not really into because she's only into chasing guys. She doesn't want to be tied down, and she's attached to someone who broke her heart. So who is he? This boy who is, in fact, chasing someone who he can't have, to tell me that he wishes I were there in his bed? He is a liar. He is unfair. He sucks. He's still beautiful. Why is this so hard?